NAME: Rwenshaun Miller
LOCATION: Charlotte, NC*
OCCUPATION: Executive Director, Eustress Inc. Therapist*
“My life changed when the gun didn’t discharge when I pulled the trigger as the barrel touched my temple during this third attempt. I was diagnosed with Bipolar disorder 7 years prior and did not know how to handle it because I did not understand what it meant. As a Black man, I allowed fear, ignorance, and ego determine my actions by not pursuing the help that I needed to manage my symptoms and learn how to live with this mental illness.
I first experienced symptoms my second year in college when I was 19 years old. I was reluctant to get the help that I needed and was forced to the psychiatric ward of the local hospital by my family. I was literally fighting during this intervention. After a stay in the hospital, I was able to get the help I needed after withdrawing from school. This included therapy, medication and learning ways to cope. I got better. However, I wanted to go back to school and didn’t want people to know what I been through. And of course in my head I felt like I was “cured”. So I stopped going to therapy and taking meds. The symptoms started back and I started self medicating with alcohol. This eventually led to the incident I initially described.
When the bullet did not leave the chamber, my eyes opened and I got the help that I needed. Each day is not the best but I realize that it is not the worst. I take it one step at a time as I try to help others acknowledge, address, and deal with their own mental health challenges.”
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